Feeling like a failure...

I feel like a failure. I did lose 40 pounds... but now I am back to 200... so now its only 37 pounds lost.

I can't seem to control what I eat like I used to-- I am being too liberal and letting myself eat nonsense.

I am too depressed to go to the gym-- or to function normally.... or to do homework...

I just want to crawl into a hole and die...