Its raining....

I really want to weigh myself, I'm getting anxious but I said I would wait till the day before thanksgiving.... so I guess I will wait.

Right now I am eating breakfast:
tortilla= ???calories and 11gcarbs (I forgot to check the calories..)
chicken breast= 110calories 0gcarbs
light italian dressing= 35calories 4gcarbs
lettuce= 5calories 1gcarbs

Tricking my stomach-- one piece of gum at a time...

Well, I really enjoy this "clear splash" water that tastes like raspberries or whatever the hell it is.... its pretty yummy.

I just ate breakfast
tortilla= 170 cals 27carbs,
3 pieces of turkey 40cals,
lettuce= 15cals 3carbs

Lunch:
tortilla= 170c 27gcarbs
turkey= 40c .5gcarbs
fat free ranch dressing= 45c 10gcarbs
banana peppers= 0c 0gcarbs
lettuce= 5c 1gcarbs

Dinner:
piece of salmon= 100c 0gcarbs
pickle= 0c 0gcarbs

snack during the day that i was definitely not supposed to have:
tiny piece of pumpkin pie= 229c 29.8gcarbs

I also had a kiwi... 46c 11.2gcarbs.

damn... altogether that is 850calories and 108 carbs. shit shit shit. fuck. shit.

that is estimated for the pumpkin pie on www.calorieking.com




I am chewing gum an awful lot, because I am hungry quite often. It seems to be working to trick my stomach into thinking that maybe a piece of food will drop down into it. Pretty neato.

Ceramics class today, REALLY don't want to go. Not INSPIRED at all. It should be an interesting day.

I really wish I had some candy corn right now... :)

Btw, ceramics was pretty interesting, I got a lot of stuff done today.
I also went to the grocery store and i was really really REALLY really DEBATING on whether or not to buy candy corn, but I didn't... I was pretty proud of myself.

It smells like Halloween in here....

Breakfast:
lettuce= 15 cals 3gcarbs
chicken breast= 110 0carbs
dressing= 30cals 5gcarbs

Lunch:
buffalo blue chicken wrap from wawa = 330 cals 38g carbs

Then I had a chocolate covered cherry, a tootsie roll, I was snacking on bits of chicken randomly, I had a cup of coffee with 2 tbsp of ovaltine, cup of tea with honey, chip with salsa.

Then I went to my boyfriends house were I had a turkey wrap. Coconut. and a cupcake.


Bad bad kelly.
So I think I have diabetes....

Pumpkin Pie and Icecream

This is a picture from this summer at the beach, with my wonderful charming handsome boyfriend and I.

My boyfriend and I are on similar diets, however he started his before mine, so we are at different points. He has been sick a lot lately too-- so he has been "cheating" more than I have.
I know he reads this (hi eric!! <3)

I find myself cheating on my diet more when I am around him. Which isn't always a bad thing, because sometimes it is okay for me to give into my cravings with food. I think I just have to get some more will power because my grip on this diet is starting to slip I think.

And I really want to get down to at least 200 pounds by November. (so, 20 pounds I would have to lose)

Blah, I just did really poorly yesterday and today on my diet. Tomorrow I am going to a family party and I am going to want to eat there too. Fuck fuck fuck. :(

Stink Bugs and Bubble Gum

Well, I did not eat breakfast today due to the fact that I woke up WAYY too late to eat. I've been chewing a good amount of gum, I think in my mouth right now is 3 pieces. (I just like a big bulky gum chew...)

There are stink bugs attacking my window.

The food I have piled into my mouth today (so far...) would be...
Lunch (1:45pm)
Tortilla= 170cals 27gcarbs
Turkey= (5) 60cals 3gcarbs
Lettuce= (2) 6 cals 1gcarb
F.F. ranch dressing= 45cals 10gcarbs

I think gum is 1g of carb a piece... so maybe I've had 5g in carbs in gum. Hmmm...

Okies that is it for now!

The start of the Food Diary.... DUN DUN DUN....

So, I am determined to loose 10 more pounds by the end of October, but this is going to require NOT cheating on my diet. SO I have decided to keep a "food journal" to keep tract of what I eat during the day.


Today was pretty good. In all 658.2 calories and 99.1 carbs.

Breakfast:
Tortilla= 170 cals and 27g carbs
(2) Lettuce= 6 cals and 1g carbs
(4) Thin sliced turkey= 40cals and .5g carbs
(2 tbsp) Fat free ranch dressing= 45 cals and 10g carbs

Lunch:
Tortilla= 170 cals and 27g carbs
(2) Lettuce= 6 cals and 1g carbs
(2 tbsp) Fat free ranch dressing= 45 cals and 10g carbs
(4oz) Chicken Breast= 110 cals and 0carbs

Dinner:
(6) Lettuce= 15 calories and 3g carbs
(4 tbsp) Fat free ranch dressing= 90 cals and 20g carbs
(2) Peanutbutter crackers= 63.2 cals and 7.6 carbs

BLAH.
I cheated with the peanutbutter crackers... :(

fail. fail. fail. fail.
but I will do better tomorrow!!!! :)

Horoscope sign: Libra... the scale.. maybe its a sign ;)

My boyfriend stayed over my apartment last night, this morning I noticed him stepping on the scale. So being the sly little devil I am, I asked him to weigh me but not tell me how much I weigh. Then I was like... is it at least under 225? "yes" is it under 220? "no" So, I averaged together the numbers and it was like 222, or 221. So I asked and he said "221" Hopefully he wasn't fibbing to me, although I don't think he would fib to me :)

Okay, so... if I weigh 221 as of Sept. 22, 2010. I want to get down to 200 by December 22, 2010. and 180 by March 22, 2011. :)

I know I can do this, it is just going to take an awful lot of will power to do it!
I don't want to be the "fat" teacher. :(

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this... oh fuck... I'm hungry :/

....

Here is a picture of me, back in August 2010. I am putting this up there, to take a picture in the same pose in November after I weigh myself :)


Okies :)
I think I look pretty cute :) :) :)

No snackingg...

So yesterday with worrying that I was only eating 575 calories, I ate more (but towards the end of the night when it was late)

I had a half cup of raspberries with whipped cream on top. I was satisfied, I should have stopped eating. BUT NO, I had to go and finish off the rest of the box of frosted mini wheats (which was like... 8 of them)

My will power is strong during the day, but when it hits night time and I get "bored" that is when I start to snack, I need to stop doing that.

I really want to weigh myself, how many more days until the day before thanksgiving? The countdown begins. .....

Also, I should go to the gym. Fo sho.

Why so strict? Ha....

So since I can only eat 3 times a day, and no carbs (besides the tortilla wraps I am using to make two wraps a day) I am going to document what I eat, and the calories/carbs that are in them.

Breakfast 11am:
tortilla= 120cals 23g carbs
(1) Lettuce= 2.5cals .5g carbs
Banana Peppers= 0cals <1gcarbs
(4) thin sliced turkey= 40cals .5gcarbs
(2 tbsp) fat free ranch dressing= 45cals 10gcarbs

total calories = 207.5 total carbs= 34.5g

if my other meal is going to be the same as my first one... hmmmm.....

Then I just have to figure out how many calories is in a salad with fat free ranch dressing, and a cooked chicken breast.

--UPdate
SO i figured out... like I said that I am only going to be eating 3 meals a day, and pretty strict ones.

If my first meal is 207.5 calories and 34.5g carbs.
My second meal which would be a salad (around 6 leaves of lettuce 15 calories, and 3 grams of carbs) I would have two table spoons of fat free ranch dressing (45 cals and 10 carbs) and a breast of chicken that I have made on the stove with non stick no fat cooking spray (I checked on calorie king, the average chicken breast if 4oz would be 110 calories.)

so, the calories for my second meal would be around 160. and the carbs would be around 13g.

then my dinner meal....which is the same as my breakfast. sooo... 207.5cals and 34.5 carbs.

that would mean in a day I am only eating... 575 calories and 82 carbs.

That is GOT to be unhealthy...

:( no wonder I am loosing so much weight so quickly I am starving myself...

Hunger...

I need some carbs. Seriously.
I pinky promised my boyfriend I would not weigh myself until the day before thanksgiving. I am going to try my hardest.

Urgh.

I am just so hungry... I guess I will drink some nasty ass Kutztown water... gross!!

Sunday... there was brunch.

My name is Kelly, and I love food.
I love fruit, kiwi, bananas, apples, strawberries, raspberries...
I love vegetables, broccoli, peppers, tomatoes, carrots, celery, corn, green beans, peas, lima beens...

I absolutely love cereal. Any kind of cereal. Oh and bread ( i love toast!) Pizza is really good, so so yummy. French fries, mac'n'cheese, spaghetti with cheese melted into it with the sauce!, mcdonald's hamburgers, ICECREAM.

I love icecream, cookies, cakes, some pies, jello, popsicles, pudding, you name it.

Too bad I am on a diet and I cannot have any of the things mentioned above.

This is called fattie gets thin, welcome to my life.