Orange soda, you are the devil.

Orange soda is delicious. But it has 52 carbs, I failed to check how many carbs orange soda was yeilding and drank it... oh well.. I guess tomorrow will be a better day.

Anyhoo-- I had a really good day with the boyfriend, we checked out his college stuff and took a road trip, and also ate at Texas Roadhouse which is pretty amazing there.


Tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow tomorrow I'll love ya tomorrow its only a day a-wayyyyyy!!!

Holidays are over-- and so are my horrible eating habits

Lately because of the holiday I have been eating chocolate and cookies everyday. I LOVE chocolate, I even had some truffles in my purse-- just in case I needed it.

Well I was honest about having them in my purse after my boyfriend convinced me that we should start going at our diet hard-core again. He threw out the chocolate.

It made me upset just because he was wasting it, I would have rather he gave them to his mom.

But anyway....

I think I have come up with a new points game, something that I can actually stick to.

3 points= 90 or less carbs a day
2 points= exercised for at least 35 minutes
1 point= no snacks after dinner
2 points= no snacks during the day with more than 15 carbs in them
1 point= for not weighing myself that day
1 point= only drinking water that day


I know these sound simple, but it is definitely what I need to start off with.
I need to try to get a 10 point day every day. When I reach 70 points I am going to buy myself something pretty....


or you know... spend my money on art supplies... or... pay my rent... haha.


IN OTHER BREAKING NEWS----------

While I was filling my cup with water today I heard the sound of my sister crying from upstairs. Why was she crying you may be wondering? Because she weighed 190 pounds, and that is the biggest she has ever been.

I came upstairs asking what was wrong, she told me, I then replied 'hey i can jump on the scale and you can see how much I weigh, that might make you feel a little better "

I guess it did, until I said to her 'hey we might be weighing the same soon!' haha.

I'm a bitch. but anyway, if she really wanted to fix the way she looks she can work at it like I am doing.

Btw, I weighed myself today (in the afternoon, after I ate all day and (TMI for most who would read this but I gotta say it ...i haven't pooped in a few days either... haha) and I weigh 208.

I was down to 204 in the beginning of December. I need to get back down to that and my goal by end of january is 190. :)

I can do this! and I am sure as hell going to try!

Urggghhhh

I need to get my ass in gear. I have not done a workout video in so long, I have not gone to the gym for a while, and today was a bad day with my eating.

This is such a struggle, But I really need to get down to 160 by the summer--- to be healthy and decrease the risk of getting diabetes.

I need to figure out how to curb my appetitte. Maybe I should just continue taking the green tea fat burn pills... but they make me sick (I vomit because of them). So are the pills worth it? Probably not.

Sweets aren't worth it either. I think I need to go food shopping to get some healthy (or any f00d) in my house. The only thing I have here is Lite Wheat Bread, and there is a cup of delicious chocolate on the kitchen table that I keep digging into. Oh, and also freeze pops. Maybe I will go shopping for some food tomorrow


This is going to be a long, trying break.
I expect to gain a little weight because of the holidays, but nothing over 210. I am 206-207 right now. I cannot afford to get over 210 again.

:/

It isn't a party until....

Last night we (my roommates and I) had a "Prom 2010" party at our apartment here at school. Not many people showed up, 5 or 6 people actually came. But it was really fun.

I tried not eating bad yesterday, I remember eating oatmeal in the morning. Then I had 2 pickles, some carrots, a rice cake with peanut butter, and hot chocolate. I think I may have eaten something else after that, oh thats right like 10 or so Pretzel Bites.

So that was kind of a bad day. Then I got to my apartment, went out to eat with my roommate her boyfriend and her best friend, I got a cheeseburger and fries. I ate the whole thing... every single fry. :/

Then we started drinking--- I had a tall glass full of V8 (the fruity kind) and tequila :) (I love tequila) and 1 bottle of miller lite. Then 2 shots after that, the rest of the time I drank water. During the time we played King's Cup I had 2 pieces of pizza.



Thankgoodness winter break started and I will not be around alcohol or anything else that is bad. Going back home for a month might be good--- my dad is have a really hard time with money right now although he works so much just to pay the bills-- we hardly have money for food. So I guess not having food to eat could help me?

Maybe.

Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming--- ahh who am I kidding? I've got to swim like JAWS is chasing me...

Food-- any nourishing substance that is eaten, drunk or otherwise taken into the body to sustain life, provide energy, promote growth, etc.

That is the dictionary definition of Food.
And this is the dictionary definition of Obese.

- excessively fat or fleshy, corpulent

I think I over exaggerated the "etc." part in the definitionof food. Sometimes I feel as though food is my enemy. When it is placed in front of me, or in the spaces I live in, I cannot help but eat it. This is bad during holidays wherever I go-- there are delicious goodies obstructing my way encouraging me to downward spiral off of my diet.

But that will be no longer. If I want to lose 30 more pounds I have to be strict. I have to tell myself NO.

Also if I lose 30 more pounds that would bring me down to 176. Which is an inticing idea. Maybe I should strive to get down to 160? Then I can at least be in the overweight range of my height level instead of OBESE.

I feel like I need an exessive amount of help though. I did it in september, I only ate 3 times a day, I had carbs only twice a day, I ate 2 wraps a day and a salad. And it WORKED. I lost 10 pounds. Then I went on a no carb diet, lost 10 more pounds. Then just watched what I ate and exercised and lost 10 more pounds.

I think on December 26th, I am going to start back up on the No Carb diet for 2 weeks, just to jump start my diet again. Then add in carbs twice a day. I can do this, it isn't hard. I just need to tell myself that ....

Eating junk food is not worth it.

I don't understand how I cannot get this thru my thick, chunky, "fleshy" skull...;)

------ So I have 3 work out videos.
1. Skinny Bitch Bootcamp
2. Walk away the pounds (which I have not used because it sounds boring)
3. Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred.

I just bought the 3rd one not even an hour ago from walmart for $9.54.

I am totally broke, but I saw it there, heard really great reviews from my friends and from people online so I had to buy it. I plan on starting it tomorrow, the first day of the 30 day shred.

Armed with a diet plan and an exercise plan I think I will be able to defeat my enemy-- Food. But it will also take willpower, motivation, strength, and a little faith.

"Control of one's impluses and actions, self control"

I needed that today when all I ate was Redvines and Dots. FML.

Tomorrow is a new day, I can do this and I will. :)

Excuses, excuses.

I really need to stop making excuses and get back on track with losing weight. Most of the time I am on track, but I think this weekend set it off a great deal.

today for breakfast:
oatmeal= 150 calores and 28 carbs. there is dietary fiber of 6g, so I subtracted it to 22g carbs.

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I'm so upset and pissed off I couldn't even eat the fucking oatmeal.

I give up on eating today. I'm not going to consume anything but water and tea.

Trying the POINTS game... tomorrow...

I am going to try this whole... points game tomorrow... for some reason today I am really really hungry.

I have my... 'aunt flo' and I need more food.. I just do.

I am going to eat a bowl of cereal, which is probably bad.. but oh well.

Cheerios Be Gone

I fixed the Cheerio binging problem-- it was as easy as taking them downstairs to the kitchen an not having them in my room.

Simple yet effective.

Another blog I read has posted an interesting game that she is trying out, and so far it has been really successful for her. (She also has had the LapBand surgery, so I'm not sure if this will work for me too, but I'm willing to give it a chance)

It is a point system game. I created my own spin...

1 point = no snacks between breakfast and lunch
1 point = 90 carbohydrates or less a day
1 point = not weighing in
1 point = 6 bottles or glasses of water a day
2 points = no snacks between lunch and dinner
2 points = no snacks after dinner
2 points = 1 hour of exercise a day

total points to be earned a day: 10 points
total per week: 70 points

Redemption:
35 points: RedBox rental
70 points: new book (paperback)
100 points: new art supply
150 points: new item of clothing
200 points: massage from boyfriend
250 points: $50 spent on clothing
300 points: Trip to NYC Art Museum
350 points: Trip to a Philly Art Museum
400 points: Trip to Gettysburg


Rules:
If no points are earned in a day, balance goes to zero
Partial points can be redeemed (if 100 points are in the bank, I could redeem only 70 and
keep 30 in the bank)
Points can only be redeemed following a 10 point day
Points earned each day must be posted to blog or written down to be held accountable!