Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming--- ahh who am I kidding? I've got to swim like JAWS is chasing me...

Food-- any nourishing substance that is eaten, drunk or otherwise taken into the body to sustain life, provide energy, promote growth, etc.

That is the dictionary definition of Food.
And this is the dictionary definition of Obese.

- excessively fat or fleshy, corpulent

I think I over exaggerated the "etc." part in the definitionof food. Sometimes I feel as though food is my enemy. When it is placed in front of me, or in the spaces I live in, I cannot help but eat it. This is bad during holidays wherever I go-- there are delicious goodies obstructing my way encouraging me to downward spiral off of my diet.

But that will be no longer. If I want to lose 30 more pounds I have to be strict. I have to tell myself NO.

Also if I lose 30 more pounds that would bring me down to 176. Which is an inticing idea. Maybe I should strive to get down to 160? Then I can at least be in the overweight range of my height level instead of OBESE.

I feel like I need an exessive amount of help though. I did it in september, I only ate 3 times a day, I had carbs only twice a day, I ate 2 wraps a day and a salad. And it WORKED. I lost 10 pounds. Then I went on a no carb diet, lost 10 more pounds. Then just watched what I ate and exercised and lost 10 more pounds.

I think on December 26th, I am going to start back up on the No Carb diet for 2 weeks, just to jump start my diet again. Then add in carbs twice a day. I can do this, it isn't hard. I just need to tell myself that ....

Eating junk food is not worth it.

I don't understand how I cannot get this thru my thick, chunky, "fleshy" skull...;)

------ So I have 3 work out videos.
1. Skinny Bitch Bootcamp
2. Walk away the pounds (which I have not used because it sounds boring)
3. Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred.

I just bought the 3rd one not even an hour ago from walmart for $9.54.

I am totally broke, but I saw it there, heard really great reviews from my friends and from people online so I had to buy it. I plan on starting it tomorrow, the first day of the 30 day shred.

Armed with a diet plan and an exercise plan I think I will be able to defeat my enemy-- Food. But it will also take willpower, motivation, strength, and a little faith.

"Control of one's impluses and actions, self control"

I needed that today when all I ate was Redvines and Dots. FML.

Tomorrow is a new day, I can do this and I will. :)